Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Blustery Bitter Days

I can't help but be a little depressed that the weather has turned so cold, so very quickly. It makes me want to snuggle up in my bed and never leave it.  I had a little bit of that problem this morning, I was all warm and cozy with my fluffy blanket and my cursed alarm ruined everything. I have broken out the Pumpkin Spice candle, and it remains lit as long as I am home. It helps to remind me to be cheerful, and reflect on the beauty of fall. Indeed, fall is my favorite season, when it is not ruined by an early winter. I have been extremely grateful this week for all of the blessings in my life. Conference couldn't have come at a better time. I did a lot of self evaluation, and I am making the changes that I have determined will make be happy. So far, I am very content. I have been able to spend time with my dad these last few weeks as he was living at the hospital. It was good for me to be able to be there for him when he needed me. I was given many opportunities to serve last week, and it only made me more grateful for the great things my parents have taught me. One of the most touching moments of the week, I was laying awake with a 4 year-old at 1:00am. We were both trying to relax and she was telling me stories. I was on the floor next to her bed, and she put her arm over the bed and asked me to hold her hand. We stayed like that until she fell asleep, but right before she fell asleep she peeked over the side of the bed, and said,"I love you." It was a testimony to me that Heavenly Father is watching over me, and that we are instruments in his hands. Her tender words inspired me and helped me to be grateful for service. I never know when people are watching me or need me, but as I pray diligently that I can be guided to help everyone, I have had numerous experiences these past weeks. I wanted to share something that Glendon said to me in one of our last conversations. I was at their house for breakfast, and Glendon was asking me what I wanted to do with my life. He didn't want a general answer like I am use to giving. He wanted me to give the real soul searching answer. I sat pondering for a few minutes what I knew was the answer but one that I so rarely share. I told him what he wanted to hear, and what I really wanted to say. His response was simple, and yet so thought provoking for me. It was exactly what I needed to hear. "So, what are you doing to get it." My response......"Nothing." The one thing I wanted most in life, I was really not exerting none of my efforts towards it. I attribute my new found discovery of "my life" to him. I will forever be grateful for the many kind words that were spoken, and encouragement that was given. Glendon has been a great influence for good in my life, and I hope to be able to share with others the things that I learned from him.

1 comment:

Stacy said...

Very touching and beautiful, Whit.
I love you too!